I am pretty much a hot mess lately, enjoy.
i swear to god it was friday like 11 minutes ago
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Playing hookie with my love. Best Monday ever.
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He told me he spoke to me in his sleep, and was so sad I wasn’t there when he woke up. I swore I dreamed about him that same night. Wish I hadn’t been so mean to him before I left this morning. He scares me sometimes when he is not himself,and I have to leave him for weeks at a time. Sometimes I don’t think he eats for days when I’m gone, or sleeps. I now understand what his mom was talking about when she told me she could see a change in him from when we started dating. Sometimes he seems like a complete stranger to me, and sometimes he is just himself again. We made love all morning until I had to leave for work. My legs and thighs were sore all day at work, and I have a few bruises. It was worth it. I wish he hadn’t lied to me. I wish he wouldn’t do things that are bad for him. I hate seeing him that way. It’s like seeing someone at a low point, and you don’t want to look, but can’t look away. I should have not been so mean this morning. I ruined the mood, I wouldn’t have had to if he hadn’t lied.
I feel like last night was a real turning point in our relationship. We spent all evening together cuddling,talking, smoking hookah and making love. It is a night I never want to forget. The way he looked at me and stroked my hair. I could go on and on about last night but all you need to know is that it was perfect.
Perhaps the reason I see the crazy so much in other people is because I am. Maybe the reason I get so angry when I see the crazy ways people act is because I see it in myself. Perhaps I am angry at myself for being crazy.
I just got sad all the sudden.